How Conceited of Me.

To think that I understand him.

Me

Hate Talk Trash

Love Tetris Battle.

Hate Spiders.

Love Watch Anime

Hate Not Watch Anime

Love Read Manga

Hate Not Read Manga

Love Books

Hate Dust

Love Lazy Around

Hate Do Nothing

Love Haruma Miura

Hate Flay

Love Cats

Hate Dogs

Love Read

Hate

First Time

That I have nothing to say on this problem...

Si Nardong Putik!

Ni Kathleen!!!

Wala eh, tuwang-tuwa talaga ako dun sa Darna na 'yun...

Dahil nga sa hindi gumana 'yung comments sa akin, ayaw magpakita 'nung word verification, Kathleen! Heto comment ko!  

Before reading:"Ay! hahaha.. Hindi ko pa nababasa, 'yung part ni Nardong Putik pa lang ang alam ko kasi dumiretso na aagad ako dito sa comments, hahaha... I-google mo kasi kung sino si Nardong Putik, hahaha... LOL-ing ako dito, grabe,..."

After: Hala! Patrick-inspired?! I like!!! Hahahaha....

Block 18

angBabaengWalangMagawa – Imee

AdventuRAWRRR- Jayrol

SiTopWanTo- Shyla

Laginalangsiako- Val

lil’dancer- Lyka

Tangkad- Athena

miShpurpol- Karen Vie

barHbiegirl- Karen Grace

hapinoyBait!- hiromi

chairman- MJ

kuyaChairman- PJ

shuz- Zusmitha

SpeakeRR- Claudine

hanepsaGiling- Steph

boykalbopeace!- Menzi

jayrol’s hun- Vince

mr. Hahabait- JM

lukaSti- Aileen

anuraw?- Flor

ndhlatastigxa- Rizza

Dolly- Felma

chinKit- Kris Diane

keiChin- Keith

inlabakonuon – Ivan

modelmis- Cate

mawKoolit- Maw

silencshhh- Diana Ross

splitgirl!- Mercy

=some=bang=-Erlinda

Depressed? Barely.

I didn’t really work hard.

I know I didn’t.

I have to keep those words in mind to hold on to my sanity, because God knows how I really want to start blaming the whole world for my misfortunes, or whatever you call them.

I only have the right to blame me, not my instructor, not my friends, not destiny, and definitely not God.

For a year now, I’ve been asking what I lack. I’m comprehensive, if there is such a word, I listen, I review, I cram, I sometimes read ahead of class, but that would be rarely, since the subject itself  rarely interests me too. Yeah, I’m at my limits.

I’m in despair.

And as a matter of fact, I’m really, really annoyed.

And that idea annoys me all the more.

It’s crazy! I’m crazy!

Madness to the nth degree.

Desperation is gnawing my insides, and it hurts like hell.

I’m telling myself not to wallow in self-pity but that won’t do, because I’m every inch a human, and that is but normal.

To have my self-esteem crushed into bits, my future shatter right in front of my eyes.

And the things that cause me to see red is that, I allowed it.

I did nothing!

Not devote myself to this effin’ subject, not try to at least learn.

I only do what I do the best, I divert myself to things that are in every way the opposite of what I should have done and what I should be doing.

And now, I come face to face with the materialization of my very own version of REGRET.

Yeah, I’m so sorry for myself. My poor little stupid girl self.

And the last statement didn’t even make sense, much like my own state at the present.

Awww. Life sucks. I know.

The uhm… note above just shows how depressed I am.

Comparison

Claimer: An original work of mine.

Comparison

Darkness claims darkness
As lullabies wake me up…
Shrill sounds of ache
Buzzing endlessly…

Space.Time.Oblivion
Calls unto me
Why?
Pain.Darkness.Hurt
Getting nearer,
Why?

My intellect is merely an ant
Compared to that boulder
Of Knowledge..
Deep. Heavy
That boulder of knowledge
Compared to life
Is dust
Floating.Tiny

Buzzing endlessly
Without stopping.
On and on and on…
There’s no end
An infinite flow
Of  non-sensical thoughts
Non-stop…
That disturbs me….

Face it.

REALITY.

It does bite.