FEBRUARY 14

The phantom striked! But so does Accounting.

This day, February 14th, is the most complicated day of my life!

Best and worst rolled into one.

Let us start with the best.

Since it is Valentines, I, being a hopeless romantic, enjoyed watching love being felt the whole day!

And I hanged out with friends, our objective to shrug off reality and just enjoy every moment as they pass.

It was totally fun, I sang and shouted and laughed.

♪♪♪ Vindicated, Famous Last Words, Decode, Unfaithful, No Promises ♪♪♪

Worst part is:

I still failed.
Maybe the effort that I've thrown into it just wasn't enough?
Or maybe I myself am not enough?

Valentines Misadventures

Yep, pinapangunahan ko na ang mga mangyayari ngayong araw na ito.

And it's going to be bloody!!!

TFTIESYF EPILOGUE

Pangiti-ngiti pa rin si Karen kinabukasan. Halatang may lablayp.
Pangiti-ngiti rin si Gembong kinabukasan. Halatang siya ang lablayp.

"Ang lame pala ng confession natin kahapon?"

"Hala! 'Wag mo na ipaalala, lame talaga."

"Pwede ko namang i-justify eh."

"Sige nga."

"Because people in love can become anyone that is out of their character. Like how I became a poet, how you became outgoing, how we became lame."

"All in the name of love?"

"Ay, hinde.. "

"Hampasin kita?"

":)"

TFTIESYF

A/N: Last. Last.Last. And sana, na -meet ko expectations niyo.

Verse 10

"Kahit Hindi Sana Ikaw, wala eh, ikaw talaga."

In fairness kay Gembong, never itong nag-falter sa 'panliligaw' sa kanya.
Ilang months na ba ang nakalipas?
At hanggang ngayon eh nagtetext or whatever pa rin sila.
Friendly dates here and there.
Hanging out.
At hindi niya napapansin, during those times ay naipakilala na nila ang sarili sa isa't-isa.
And it felt good. It's like finding a soulmate. Even more than that.

"Kumusta na kayo ni Gembong?" tanong sa kanya ng friend niya. Minsan talaga, hindi na niya alam kung matutuwa ba siya o maasar na. Kasi, eternally na nakadikit ang pangalan niya sa lalaking iyon, at hindi naman nakakatulong 'yung pagsama-sama rin nila sa lakad.

"Anong kami? Kami ba? Hindi!"

"Parang nga, may nababalitaan ako eh."

"Ano naman 'yun?"

"May crush daw siya sa block nila."

That must be the worst thing she ever heard today.
Doon niya na rin naisip 'yung idea na matagal na niyang ayaw isipin, ayaw harapin, ayaw pakisamahan.
Kasi para sa kanya, bawal.
Para sa puso naman niya, "Wala akong Pake!"
Dun na nga nagsimula ang gyera ng puso at isip niya. Kung ano ba ang tama, kung ano ba ang dapat, at kung ano ba ang gusto niya.

"Hindi! Hindi ko siya gusto at never na magiging kami!" paimpit na sigaw niya, para sana paalalahanan ang sariling iyon ang dapat.

"Dapat pala, noon mo pa iyan sina di ba? Para naman at least, hindi ako umasa?" Boses ni Gembong.

At nagulat siya dahil nasa likod pala ito, puno ng hinanakit ang mukha.

"I..I.. hin..."

"Wag na Karen, sa totoo lang, nakakapagod din palang umasa, pero dahil nga nagmamahal ako, umaasa pa rin ako. Pero minsan din pala, kailangan sumuko na, lalo kung abala na lang ako sa 'yo."

"Wala naman palang silbi 'yung effort ko eh, masabihan lang na ma-effort ako. 'Yun lang. Pero wala talaga eh, sa tingin mo ba, kung natuturuan ko lang ang puso na magmahal ng iba, naks... Sa tingin mo, gugustuhin kong ma-in love sa babaeng masyadong matayog?
Sa tingin mo, mag-iipon ako ng isang drum ng lakas ng loob para lang iparating sa babaeng iyon ang nararamdaman ko? Kung ibang babae ba 'yun, gagawin ko kaya? Ang tingin ko, isang malaking hindi. Sa'yo lang. Pero masyado na akong maraming nasabi, dapat nga kanina pa ako naka-alis eh. Pero ewan ko ba.Parang, all these time, handa ako dun sa idea na hindi mo nga talaga ako gusto. Pero Karen, masakit pa rin pala talaga. Kahit ang alam ko, handa na ako. 'Pag narinig ko na pala 'yun mismo-----"

"Teka lang! 'Wag mo nang tapusin 'yang speech mo! Para ka nang running-for president niyan eh. Wait lang! Wait! Wait lang talaga.. Tutal nagsasabihan na rin tayo ng mga feelings natin et cetera. Let me tell you this."

"Teka lang din! Tara sa labas! Mas maganda ang ambience dun," sabi agad nito, at inakay siya papuntang gardens.

"Para sa isang lalaking dapat eh heartbroken na ngayon, masaya ka pa rin."

"Ayaw ng mga lalaking ipakita ang mga kahinaan nila sa babaeng gusto nila."

Wala na siyang nasabi, somehow, naintindihan niya ito, at tahimik lang siya na sumunod dito.

"Totoo ba yun?"

"Alin?"

"'Yung sinabi mo?"

"Hindi! Nabigla lang ako dun! Hindi naman sa hindi talaga kita gusto."

"Eh ano pala? Nabingi lang ako?"

"Ang sungit mo!" at umasta siyang aalis na lang. Pero agad siya nitong pinigilan sa braso. And yeah, the typical thing. That bumping of lips called kissing. Then Sparks Flew! Past tense ng kanta ni Taylor Swift.

"Hala!!!!"

"Isang tanong, isang sagot, oh, huminga ka." Yugyog pa nito sa kanya.

And for the first time, nag relax din ang kanyang nerves.

"Mahal na kita, kahit hindi kita type." At nakita niya ang pagka bigla sa mukha nito. 'Yung tipong hitsura ng taong naka lunok ng isang piso.

"Kailangan talagang idagdag pa iyong huli? Eh ano ang type mo?"

"Wala! Wala sa isip ko iyan, wala sa panaginip ko, wala sa dalangin ko, wala sa expectations ko.Panira ka nga lang kasi ng plano, sumulpot-sulpot ka pa kasi."

"Wala ka na ring magagawa, I'm here now, and this is for good."

"'Yun na nga eh! Alam kong nandiyan ka  lang, and before I knew it, alam ko na nandiyan ka!"

"Huh?"

"Nasanay na ako sa presence mo, kaya nung feeling ko eh mawawala ka na, ewan ko ba! Parang masama iyong loob ko." This time, naka upo na siya at nakatinagala dito.

"So, ano na? Ilang buwan mo nang pinag-iisipan kung may gusto ka ba sa akin, wala ka pa ring conclusion?" Nakangiti na si Gembong. Wala na sa lalamunan siguro ang piso.

"Matagal na akong may conclusion, hindi ko lang inacknowledge kasi."

"And?"

"Ang engot mo! Nasabi ko na nga kanina 'di ba? Ayoko ng ulitin, bingi kasi."

"-----"

"Kelan mo ako sasagutin?"

"Next month?"

"An tagal?"

"Magrereklamo ka pa."

"Hindi na po."

"Gutom na ako."

"Tara, kain."

Ay hinawakan nito ang nanlalamig na kamay niya, sabay ngiti.

"Next month pa raw, holding hands na tayo. :)"

"Haha. Sure."

~~~~~ end~~~~~~~

NOTICE!

To Gembong and Karen,

My apologies for not having posted the last parts of your story today,

Traffic kasi! Hahaha.

But I will definitely, certainly, post it before 15!

3 Days before Deptals

And the first day of the Official Exams.

Cramming pala ang tawag sa pagrereview a day before the exams.

All these years, nagcramming lang ako!!!!


Lint*k na History yan! haha...

Ang hirap, grabe!
Sadista yata si sir, kasi na eenjoy pa niya yung soooper COOL na exam niya!
What the!!!!

Walang interesting sa buhay ko, sa classmate ko meron.

Like for example, ang bagsik ni Macario!!! To think that he requested kay sir na itabi siya kay Mae!!! Hahaha.... Ito namang si Mae, mukhang hindi pa sure! Oh well, tingin ko rin, hindi siya yung tipo na pinepressure.

Hankyuut talaga, grabe,.
Made my day.

Oh, and last... Block 10 ako.

5 Days before Deptals

Ayoko pang pumasok eh!!!

Did nothing, really.

Sa Lit, discussion, sa Philo, discussion?, sa Histo, discussion, at sa Theo, discussion pa rin.

Oh, wait! May pangyayari pala noong Theo, aha.

Crush ni Marlowe Macario si Mae Phelyn Gaudia! Oha, ano???

Sorry talaga si Marlowe pero, alam na ni Mae, pretend lang kami na hindi niya alam. Kinukulit ko siya kung may chance ba ang pobre, at mukhang napuyat nga sa kaiisip an gating isa pang pobrecita. Shocked pa raw siya eh, hahaha. Development? Well, the usual, friends na sila sa Facebook. Ang saya! Tawa ako ng tawa dun… Yeah, it’s better to think of something that exists although it is not for me. Than the inexistence of something that should’ve been mine.

Accounting?

Nagreview naman ako!!! (Defensive?)

From 7 siguro, until 12…

Bale, ‘yung chapter 12, tapos 13-23 ako tumigil sa problems.

Naka- 4 episodes pa nga yata ako ng Naruto eh. Kailangan kasi ng pang-balance.

Phantom

He loves her.

But he can't talk.

He adores her.

From afar. 

He sighs.

When he sees her smile.

He sighs,

When she just passed by.

Love is such a curious thing.

Mysterious, but clear.

Confusing, but refreshing.

Conflicted, that is.

He watches her.

He keeps on loving her.

The phantom of the dark.

Much like his feelings for her.

A/N: Aww, I don't think it made any sense, but well, if ever the "phantom" had read this one, it's for him. Ganbatte!!! I was reading his story and before I realized it, I was writing this one and posting it.

Commitments? No, thank you.

sunsets...

It’s not as if I am the only person who knows the correct answer. It’s just that I was the only one who dared to voice it out. Me? Being great in English? Puh-lease! Spare me the flattery, the intimidation, from both of our sides. I mean, seriously, I just can’t say it but it makes me really uncomfortable, to the point where I do not take my work seriously anymore.

Here’s the logic behind that, I do good when I really love the topic. It’s not being well-versed in vocabulary, or grammar, or whatever. I just do what I think I like. So there’s no point in tasking me to do something just because you have witnessed how great I was the time before that. Before and this are really of different matters, and I really appreciate people who just ignore me for it, and just continue on doing his/her business. I make snide comments here and there, but please don’t be affected like what I said was absolute, because this is just me. Me.

Don’t suggest something, and then look at me with eyes that of looking for approval? What do you see me as? A fu****ng counselor? No no no sir! I’m just like you.

One might think that I’m basking in the glory of it, when in fact, it is just the opposite. I’m terribly uncomfortable, and I’m sorry, but this is who I am.

The reason behind your logic: It’s because I talk. A lot. There are people who are so academically inclined, but have problems on expressing themselves, and I’m not saying I’m the opposite of those, because I sure as hell cannot express myself very well too. The problem comes when my belief has just been questioned. Yes, it is then that I’ll talk. I will talk, and then suddenly, you’ll listen. Then suddenly, I’m a God, can someone kill me??? Oh, and yeah, I might as well be a good politician, without the charisma and stuff.

That leads us to the conclusion that I hate commitments!

I don’t like being responsible for things that in my opinion, won’t do me any good.

That’s just it!

The more they force things on me, the more I decline.

That’s my instinct as a human, my defense mechanism.

Because above all, I really hate disappointing others.

And I’ll surely do that if I make a promise, and then fail to keep them.

Good day to everyone!

Jayrol: The Wedding Crasher

Most epic thing I can remember about last sem. (2nd Year, 1st Sem)

Stop the wedding,

that man deserves no one else but me. 

I and he loved each other,

we were very happy,

we even shared our dreams,

ambitions in life,

the number of children,

we also talked about it,

and especially we also promised to each other 

that no one could ever break our bond,

even death.

Until that woman entered into our life,

everything has changed;

dreams were turned into ashes,

that in a blink of the eye,

all disappeared like bubbles.

I was left alone. 

Poor but still pretty me.

You sly woman destroyed my life and my future. 

I should be the one standing there, 

wearing that beautiful wedding dress, 

exchanging “I do(s)” with him, 

receiving that ring 

and I should be the one he will be kissing too. 

It’s all because of you…

you snatcher/whore. 

You took advantage of his weakness.

And you,

I love you so much, 

you know that. 

In fact, 

I've surrendered all that I have just for you. 

How dare you for doing these to me, 

despite of all the things I've done for you, 

all those breathtaking nights, 

mornings, 

and afternoons we spent together in that California King Bed, 

all those thousand pesos I've spent to enlarge small parts of your body. . . 

such as your eyes.

Doesn't that mean anything to you? 

You really tore my heart into pieces, 

Marion!

(With matching dark dress, veil and rolling on the floor!!! )

Si Nardong Putik!

Ni Kathleen!!!

Wala eh, tuwang-tuwa talaga ako dun sa Darna na 'yun...

Dahil nga sa hindi gumana 'yung comments sa akin, ayaw magpakita 'nung word verification, Kathleen! Heto comment ko!  

Before reading:"Ay! hahaha.. Hindi ko pa nababasa, 'yung part ni Nardong Putik pa lang ang alam ko kasi dumiretso na aagad ako dito sa comments, hahaha... I-google mo kasi kung sino si Nardong Putik, hahaha... LOL-ing ako dito, grabe,..."

After: Hala! Patrick-inspired?! I like!!! Hahahaha....

Block 18

angBabaengWalangMagawa – Imee

AdventuRAWRRR- Jayrol

SiTopWanTo- Shyla

Laginalangsiako- Val

lil’dancer- Lyka

Tangkad- Athena

miShpurpol- Karen Vie

barHbiegirl- Karen Grace

hapinoyBait!- hiromi

chairman- MJ

kuyaChairman- PJ

shuz- Zusmitha

SpeakeRR- Claudine

hanepsaGiling- Steph

boykalbopeace!- Menzi

jayrol’s hun- Vince

mr. Hahabait- JM

lukaSti- Aileen

anuraw?- Flor

ndhlatastigxa- Rizza

Dolly- Felma

chinKit- Kris Diane

keiChin- Keith

inlabakonuon – Ivan

modelmis- Cate

mawKoolit- Maw

silencshhh- Diana Ross

splitgirl!- Mercy

=some=bang=-Erlinda

That feeling...

 When you have found the ones you really want to be with.

 But you just can say goodbye to the ones you're with.

 The best would be not to severe that bond.

 That would be it.

I wish

This is goodbye. For now.

I’m the kind of person who always wants to have something solid to count on to.

Something sure, something that won’t go away nor disappear.

I need to have a ground that will support my feet.

And when I face a proposition that is not 50+1 % sure, I think again.

I need the security that I will not be alone anymore.

It scares me, that feeling that you have someone you know and yet not.

I now give all the responsibilities to fate.

Whatever will come will be then fate’s doing.

I have no say on it and it pleases me so.

I won’t feel obliged to remain the way I am nor to preserve what used to be.

Freedom is now at sight and I would be a fool not to grasp it.

We all change, that is inevitable.

And we will meet again, that I’m sure of.

And maybe, it is better this way.

To let us find ourselves, and then realize things that wouldn’t have happened if we are together. It is an advantage and a disadvantage as well.

You were the ones with whom I allowed myself to be free.

You were my first friends in this oh-so complicated world.

No one can ever change that.

What I admire the most is that despite all the differences, we all had fun.

Those times were the best times in my ‘new world’.

We had our moments, disagreements and the fun.

Yet it is also because of these differences that we are now in strife.

It may not be a major one, but the fact that there is one cannot be changed.

These differences led us to look for people whom we share the same interests with.

I think I had found mine, and that includes some of us, if not all.

You may have found yours too and I hope that somewhere in that group of people, I am present. I keep thinking that this is for good.

That there are things we need to learn alone.

That for us to develop more maturely, we need to experience being with different kinds of people.

That happened, and still is.

And despite of all that experiences, despite of all the separations, we will definitely meet again.  That is my wish.

Note: The last line is by Kaoru Igarashi of Gakuen Alice.