This is goodbye. For now.
I’m the kind of person who always wants to have something solid to count on to.
Something sure, something that won’t go away nor disappear.
I need to have a ground that will support my feet.
And when I face a proposition that is not 50+1 % sure, I think again.
I need the security that I will not be alone anymore.
It scares me, that feeling that you have someone you know and yet not.
I now give all the responsibilities to fate.
Whatever will come will be then fate’s doing.
I have no say on it and it pleases me so.
I won’t feel obliged to remain the way I am nor to preserve what used to be.
Freedom is now at sight and I would be a fool not to grasp it.
We all change, that is inevitable.
And we will meet again, that I’m sure of.
And maybe, it is better this way.
To let us find ourselves, and then realize things that wouldn’t have happened if we are together. It is an advantage and a disadvantage as well.
You were the ones with whom I allowed myself to be free.
You were my first friends in this oh-so complicated world.
No one can ever change that.
What I admire the most is that despite all the differences, we all had fun.
Those times were the best times in my ‘new world’.
We had our moments, disagreements and the fun.
Yet it is also because of these differences that we are now in strife.
It may not be a major one, but the fact that there is one cannot be changed.
These differences led us to look for people whom we share the same interests with.
I think I had found mine, and that includes some of us, if not all.
You may have found yours too and I hope that somewhere in that group of people, I am present. I keep thinking that this is for good.
That there are things we need to learn alone.
That for us to develop more maturely, we need to experience being with different kinds of people.
That happened, and still is.
And despite of all that experiences, despite of all the separations, we will definitely meet again. That is my wish.
Note: The last line is by Kaoru Igarashi of Gakuen Alice.
